why is it so hard to breathe
I can’t breathe
I try to draw air into my lungs
nothing happens no air no air
my lungs are locked frozen
you used up my share of air
with your angry sizzling words
anger has sucked the oxygen
right out of this room
this is wrong so wrong
please be quiet please
please let me breathe
I gasp and gasp and gasp
The questions begin.
What is wrong with you?
Why are you so upset?
What the f— did I do?
my tears are flowing
no shortage of water
wrapping my arms
so tight around myself
I almost feel my ribs crack
I am having a panic attack
croaks from my throat
the attempt to speak
unlocks my lungs
air roughly forces its way in
it hurts as I choke it back out
broken lungs, broken spirit
satisfied with my answer
secure that it wasn’t your fault
after all, I made you so mad
when I said that
you were smothering me
and I hurt your feelings, so
you knew it wasn’t your fault.
you walk out the front door
drive away from my emotions
air rushes back into the room
as soon as you close the door
but now, but now I’m not sure
if I even want to breathe anymore.
by Jeanne Marie
Women Who Think Too Much by Jeanne Marie 
I love this sweet friend! Another emotion I totally understand and why are we able to breath when they leave? I do believe as you do. My sister has terrible panic attacks. I just have boughts of extreme silence and invisibility. This awesome! Well done! I love your expression! Wow and from your wedding cake. I think I smashed mine!
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Ya, no sacred ground when I’m upset! I’m never sure if I should share the down side of me. So, I just do it and hope to post an upside in between. I’ll email you the picture I used first on my WWTTM book. It was my wedding pic. I still like that cover too.
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Ok that sounds great! I love your photos from today! They are amazing! I’m still at work by choice I have all my stuff here and it’s really my haven. Hope your day was a good one! Hugs and much love to you!
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Day was good, better then many lately. Hugs and love back!
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wow, powerful stuff, I was with you through it all..hope you’re breathing now sister.
Blessings and peace
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Yes, thank you.
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Great picture.
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Thank you…right off my wedding cake from 30 years ago…
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